This I wrote it tomorrow: haha I know it seems weird but I said I'd put a picture for this the next day and today it's the next day.LOL. Okay... so this ugly picture of me which look as if I were crying... I am. This is how I look when I cry and I've gotta say it's actually awfull. That's why I don't cry (or I try not to) in front of other people and it pisses me off when I do. This is how I felt yesterday but since I had people staring I didn't cry. But today I broke down (in the next post I talk about that) and I got the chance to take a pic. Why to fake sadness for pictures if I can actually photograph real one?
Okay, I'll put the photo of this comment tomorrow since I don't have a camera here but still I want to get this out of my chest. I am HOME SICKNESS, which is pretty bad, specially because (painfully funny) my home is just five blocks away, and actually I had the offert from my dad who told me that if I wanted to come back he would pic me up.
The point it's now I am in what used to be my place but I feel totally awkard and like it's not my home. Of course I always felt a little uncomfortable here, but back then I just said "I live here too, ya' know?"... Now that ship has sailed. I feel sooo sad. Honest. I feel totally depressed here. Half of the fault is because of me, I am really serius about my privacy and my space, one of the two 25%s is because there is a lot of people here, and I don't complain about that, but I can't be as free as I want... Funny, actually the ones who have to stay here because of the earthquake aren't annoying at all but the visitors are. Lucky for me they don't know about the blog or I would be dead. =S Oh, and the other 25% it's because here. there are pretty bad energies because of all that fanatic religious stuff. Seriusly!
So my soul kinda feels like falling apart, and I wanted to go so bad... But then I stare at my mom's eyes and she wanted me to stay as badly as I wanted to go so... What could I do? It's my mother, the woman who gave me life. I just nodded and said I was fine...
I know I'm probably being a drama queen, but I have been emotional since the earthquake and specially after that I feel more home-attached. And this ain't my home anymore. Just that. And I just realized that. My home now is my dad's place and I am completely happy there!! Why would I want to come here in the first place? Ah, yes family... Well I love them still, but... Just not the right roommate with my aunt and my cousin. My cousin and his wife are fine. They're very confortable people to be with... But ah... *sigh* There's nothing I can do but cry. I just feel like a tomented soul LOL. I mean, it's totally dramatic but I can't help being this way... Oh, well...
Just another night of my life.
Aw, I almost forgot. Today I received a message from Yumi and Emiru. They were worried about me and wanted to know what was going on. It made me feel pretty special, actually. The fact that they remembered me and worried about me made my heart a little warmer.
I love Emiru. And also Yumi, but Emiru is special because she's about my age and visual-fan so hurray!
I also spoke very little with Misumi. She's fine thank god and... well, that. I love her too but above all she's the only one I'd consider for a gilfriend xD.
The point it's now I am in what used to be my place but I feel totally awkard and like it's not my home. Of course I always felt a little uncomfortable here, but back then I just said "I live here too, ya' know?"... Now that ship has sailed. I feel sooo sad. Honest. I feel totally depressed here. Half of the fault is because of me, I am really serius about my privacy and my space, one of the two 25%s is because there is a lot of people here, and I don't complain about that, but I can't be as free as I want... Funny, actually the ones who have to stay here because of the earthquake aren't annoying at all but the visitors are. Lucky for me they don't know about the blog or I would be dead. =S Oh, and the other 25% it's because here. there are pretty bad energies because of all that fanatic religious stuff. Seriusly!
So my soul kinda feels like falling apart, and I wanted to go so bad... But then I stare at my mom's eyes and she wanted me to stay as badly as I wanted to go so... What could I do? It's my mother, the woman who gave me life. I just nodded and said I was fine...
I know I'm probably being a drama queen, but I have been emotional since the earthquake and specially after that I feel more home-attached. And this ain't my home anymore. Just that. And I just realized that. My home now is my dad's place and I am completely happy there!! Why would I want to come here in the first place? Ah, yes family... Well I love them still, but... Just not the right roommate with my aunt and my cousin. My cousin and his wife are fine. They're very confortable people to be with... But ah... *sigh* There's nothing I can do but cry. I just feel like a tomented soul LOL. I mean, it's totally dramatic but I can't help being this way... Oh, well...
Just another night of my life.
Aw, I almost forgot. Today I received a message from Yumi and Emiru. They were worried about me and wanted to know what was going on. It made me feel pretty special, actually. The fact that they remembered me and worried about me made my heart a little warmer.
I love Emiru. And also Yumi, but Emiru is special because she's about my age and visual-fan so hurray!
I also spoke very little with Misumi. She's fine thank god and... well, that. I love her too but above all she's the only one I'd consider for a gilfriend xD.
Today's Section:
Today's Music: ~Sid's Natsukoi~Sincrea's Atla & Ciel~Maroon 5's Sunday Morning~Shwartz Stein's Addictive Epicueran~the Gazette's Burial Applicant~D's Yami Yori Kurai Doukoku No A Capella To Bara Yori Akai Jounetsu No Aria (I just Missed By the "Yori") LOL!
Today's Movies: None. Cero. Nothing.
Today's Series: Project Runway. Just That. I love Christian & Austin... Gay people are hawt. I wish I were a gay man ¬¬ (too weird? well not more weird that things that Jae and Yun say about themselves as a couple in the first couple talk)... Big Fat Lie. I wish I were a delicate bisexual man. Or at least a girl that can pass like a man easily!
Today's Wish: Well, besides from the stuff mentioned before, I want to be at my home. MY HOME!!!!
~ Sayonara! Adieu! ~
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