Don't get me Wrong~

When I say I want your stuff, it doesn't mean I want you not to have them...
When I say I would like to be like you, it doesn't mean I don't like myself...
When I say I envy your success, it doesn't mean I want to take it away from you...

What I mean is I wish I had something cool to share with you...
What I mean is I would like to be a better person as you are...
What I mean is that I admire you, and everything you've done...

I'm honest when I say "congratulations"...
But I hope I could be congratulated too...

I truly feel happy to see you have achieved your goals...
But I feel sad for me; I hadn't gotten the power to start reaching my owns...

So when I tell you "Why not me?"...
Please don't take it as "Why you?"...

I'm happy for you; you're brave, you know and fight for what you want...

But I can't stop feeling jealous because I'm still in my couch, dreaming about what I want without the power to get it, doing everything that I'm told and supossed to do, too scared that I will not succeed if I try harder for harder things.

So beleive when I say I'm happy...
Don't get mad if I say I envy you...
It's just that I admire you too much...
Can't you realize I just wish I was as brave and cool as you??